on my shoulders

When you reach the demise of a relationship, would you reflect on it or just move on?

I think most of you will probably be like me—spent a significant amount of time running through the whole thing again, in my head, like it's a really long movie with a twisted ending.

Do you even blame yourself for the failure at all?

Be it that the other party lied, cheated or just hurt you for no reason, would you still admit some fault?

Even if you have tried your best, do you think you could have done better?

It's hurtful and exhausting to resent someone forever. Forgiving will feel divine. And I hope to be there soon.

Life goes on

Sparky makes his little spot in my room with an red ikea throw, a lime green wrap that was supposed to cover the printer, two of his buddies and a new teddy bear. Funny thing is I shouldn't have kept the teddy which was gifted from the ex, but I did. And one fine day Sparky walked into my room with teddy in his mouth. Now it's his to vent his frustration on, he loves chewing on teddy's ears. Nom nom nom.


I'm going tubing this Saturday! I'm very happy to be making more meaningful friendships with more people. Well, we never know how people truly are, but we can give it a try. And doing all these fun activities OUTSIDE with nature. It's wonderful just thinking about it. We'll be drinking and chatting, flowing lazily down the Colorado River... ...

一个出轨男人与佛的对话

深夜，寺里一人一佛，佛坐人站。

人：圣明的佛，我是一个已婚之人，我现在狂热地爱上了另一个女人，我真的不知道该怎幺办。

佛：你能确认你现在爱上的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最后一个女人吗？

人：是的。

佛：你离婚，然后娶她。

人：可是我现在的爱人温柔，善良，贤惠，我这样做是否有一点残忍，有一点不道德。

佛：在婚姻中没有爱才是残忍和不道德的，你现在爱上了别人已不爱她了，你这样做是正确的。

人：可是我爱人很爱我，真的很爱我。

佛：那她就是幸福的。

人：我要与她离婚后另娶她人，她应该是很痛苦的又怎幺会是幸福的呢？

佛：在婚姻里她还拥有她对你的爱，而你在婚姻中已失去对她的爱， 因为你爱上了别人，正谓拥有的就是幸福的，失去的才是痛苦的，所以痛苦的人是你。

人：可是我要和她离婚后另娶她人，应该是她失去了我，她应该才是痛苦的。

佛：你错了，你只是她婚姻中真爱的一个具体，当你这个具体不存在的时候，她的真爱会延续到另一个具体，因为她在婚姻中的真爱从没有失去过。所以她才是幸福的而你才是痛苦的。

人：她说过今生只爱我一个，她不会爱上别人的。

佛：这样的话你也说过吗？

人：我。我。。我。。。

佛：你现在看你面前香炉里的三根蜡烛，那根最亮。

人：我真的不知道，好象都是一样的亮。

佛：这三根蜡烛就好比是三个女人，其中一根就是你现在所爱的那个女人，芸芸众生，女人何止千百万万，你连这三根蜡烛那根最亮都不知道，都不能把你现在爱的人找出来，你为什么又能确定你现在爱的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最后一个女人呢？

人：我。我。。我。。。

佛：你现在拿一根蜡烛放在你的眼前，用心看看那根最亮

人：当然是眼前的这根最亮。

佛：你现在把它放回原处，再看看那根最亮

人：我真的还是看不出那根最亮。

佛：其实你刚拿的那根蜡烛就是好比是你现在爱的那个最后的女人，所谓爱由心生，当你感觉你爱她时，你用心去看就觉的它最亮，当你把它放回原处，你却找不到最亮的一点感觉，你这种所谓的最后的唯一的爱只是镜花水月，到头来终究是一场空。


人：哦，我懂了，你并不是要我与我的爱人离婚，你是在点化我，

佛：看破不说破，你去吧

人：我现在真的知道我爱的是谁了，她就是我现在的爱人。

佛：阿弥陀佛，阿弥陀佛



你我曾经深爱过的某人，无非也就是芸芸众生中的一个，只是爱由心生，自以为他/她会是今生最爱，当你感觉你爱她，你用心去爱就觉的他/她最珍贵，当万物归原，生命仍然继续，他/她无非也就是我们生命中的一个过客。

我们根本无法确定哪一个才是今生最爱，如果不懂得去珍惜，你身边这个爱你的/你爱的人，在某一天，也会成为你身边的过客。

找一个你爱的人不容易，找一个爱你的人也不容易。如果无法确定哪一个才是你最爱的人，何不在自己成为别人的爱人的时候珍惜这份感情？爱由心生，你告诉自己是爱他/她的，自然就可以爱上他/她。

如果你爱的人不爱你，也请记得：爱由心生。是你太过于把目光集中在他/她身上了，试着放开视线焦点，你会发现光亮的蜡烛到处都有。

爱与不爱，无非也就是在一念之间。

过去的事情过去的爱情，就让它过去吧，那只是我们生命的一部分，只是茫茫大海中的一滴水珠，只是漫漫苍弩中的一粒微尘。没有那些过去，也不会造就现在的你我。

珍惜当前，永远胜于三心二意

The Art of The Moment

Finally! I have time to read/re-read my books. I kinda forgot about the joy of reading for a while. Bad. Another thing I need to be aware of, if I ever forget myself in a relationship...

So I am reading The The Art of The Moment: Simple Ways to Get the Most from Life by Veronique Vienne and my beloved Pride & Prejudice by Jane Austen.

I want to share a great excerpt from the former:

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The Gift of Forgetfulness

"Happiness? That's nothing more than health and a poor memory," said Nobel prize winner Albert Schweitzer. A doctor, musician, humanitarian, and philosopher, he reinvented himself time and time again.

Enjoy your memory lapses—they make each moment a second-to-none occurrence.

• Be here now: Live as if you won't remember tomorrow what you did today.

• Be carefree: Forget what you think you know and let the world take you by surprise.

• Be blessed: Forget what you want but enjoy what you get.

• Be popular: Forget to point out that you were right in the first place.

• Be memorable: Take for granted that most folks will forget what you said but will always remember how you made them feel.

• Be generous: Between friends, forget what must be forgotten.

• Be truthful: Don't lie and you won't have to remember a thing.

• Be forgiving: Forget the age of anyone over 35.

• Be modest: Forget to mention your accomplishments.

• Be ready: This is it. The rest is but a memory.

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Wise words. Goodnight.

So I'm all settled in...

My new Apartment! Everyone knows I'm always excited and up for re-decorating a whole new living space. But this time, I do it with a lot of sadness and haste. Nevertheless, I think I lucked out—getting a move-in ready apartment which is 10 minutes' drive from work and also very pet-friendly.

It's a 2 bedroom, so yes I have a roomie. He's a cute little boy who's a lot younger and my junior at work. So he has already encountered the very-bitchy-at-work me so I don't think it's any different from a very-bitchy-at-home me! He's very sweet, volunteered to do the 'man' stuff of the house, lets me have the master bedroom and is putting up with my hoarding issues. Most importantly, he has met Sparky before and loves him too!

We stay in a corner unit, on the second floor, there's a little balcony for the nice evenings we are having now. We intend to lay some wood flooring and put some nice lights. There is two full bathrooms so we don't have to fight over it. Our bedrooms are at the opposite end of the apartments so we won't have to worry about disturbing each other. I would be happy for him if he brings someone home, but I don;t need to hear about it! Vice versa!!!

I'm definitely not done unpacking yet, though the closet is already pretty organized.

I took as much as I can from the house. First, I didn't want to have to buy anything or spend anymore money. Secondly, I did contribute monetarily to most of the furniture and appliances although I was staying rent/bills-free over there. Lastly, I JUST didn't want him to have it. I took what I need, what was originally from my previous apartment, and what I thought I fairly deserved (on a very logically and rational way).

If you guys really want to know, read on.

So by the third day, I found an apartment because that was the main thing I had to do to keep sane. I cannot bear living in that house anymore. Although he said I don't have to move out (WTF right?) I started packing once I know I'm about to sign on to the apartment. It was painful.

The weekend finally arrived after a few more agonizing days. I asked a few friends to help me move. I felt weak, helpless. I really needed someone to save me and my friends did. They came, packed my shit in boxes, loaded up their cars and unloaded numerous more into the new apt, in crazy heat, never complained, and only gave me their very best. That's why there is a saying: boy/girlfriends come and go, but true friends always stays.

Sparky came with me. He has no means of taking care of anyone, even himself, so there is no way in HELL I would leave Sparky with him. I'm the one who takes Sparky to the vet, the one who takes him to the park and the one who buys his food. He is my son, haha.

Since then I've only return there once to collect some stuff I've forgotten. I probably need to make another trip, but there is no rush. I found the gate opener in my car, but who cares, it's his loss. I'll return it at my own sweet time.

With no risk, there will be no gain. This past relationship made me wiser. It's the first that I've been so open and so serious about. I'm learning from what I did—right, wrong or anything in between. Hope that through this, I am a better person for when the Love of my life appears in front of me, I know exactly what to do.

My Heath Ceramics

Thanks to Clara, Janice & Karen!!!

I got these from my recent SF trip with the yummy gift card that they sent me for X'mas. This makes shopping so much more satisfying!

The 2010 Fall/Winter seasonal limited edition tall vase—factory price was about 30% less then retail and it was the only one. I zoomed right in and grabbed it before anyone else could. The baby breath was from the bf's gift of a rose bouquet from Valentine's day and the single dried up pink carnation was from Ashley during Mother's day :D

The yellow glazed bud vase is the new one (the brown and white were from a previous LA trip). From the current 2011 Spring/Summer seasonal limited edition.

Looks like I have a little "Clara" shrine as she also gifted me the adorable birdie cupcake stand on the left that is now used to hold our car keys since this is right by the entry way from our garage.

some updates

This is what Sparky does, during most of the day, when I'm supposed to be working.

(I took this precious pic when I was sick at home last week. Sick again! I am so useless!)

(Pardon my messy backyard. The fake grass is breaking down :( Need to put new one in)

And wh doesn't wanna see a close up pic of my son? So cute.

So the big news/ conversation starter nowadays for me is my Invisaligners! I just started two Fridays ago. I'm on my second set now. and GOSH! The first time did hurt a lot. Plus my dentist had to whip out his tiny set of saws to shave off some of my teeth coz my main problem is overcrowding. So now I have some gaps between my teeth, hopefully they will move quicker.

I'm bound to lose weight coz' wearing the aligners disallow me to snack throughout the day at my desk while I'm working. You can't eat with them on and it's a hassle to have to brush and floss everytime after i eat. Booooooo. Price of vanity.

Let's see if I'll be more perfect in 12 months!

The little extra things on some of my teeth are attachés, they help the aligners 'hold on' so they don;t move around too much.

Date Night

Supposed to go watch the UFC fight but ended up as a Date Night since we got some time to be just alone. And when I say alone it means only the two of us.

So he surprised me with a trip back to this nice neighborhood with its own man made lake. He brought me there like 2+ years ago on a date—It was later in the night, and we just had dinner and I wanted to go home already but he refused to *release* me. So he drove me to this lakeside to hang out for a while and it was freezing! I remember being very nervous, because I thought he was going to "make his move" but he didn't. Phew~

It was only a few dates later then we became officially a couple. So when we stood at the same spot just now, I told him he owes me a kiss, as I didn't receive one 2 years ago. It's all good now.

Awkward smile due to my Invisaligners

I look FUGLY in this picture (pls do not click to enlarge it) but I think is awesomely funny so I have to share it. The ducks came out of nowhere on the right and started running so I pretended it was chasing me :)

But then we figured they weren't interested in us. (this is how we see it) Turns out that the 2 white ducks are females and the 2 dark brown/green ones are males and the latter is aggressively chasing one of the white ducks. Because I joined it in party, the victim went to hide under the front of our car! But the 2 males refused to give up (horny bastards) and keep pecking at the poor girl on her neck. So much that I could see it turning red and the feathers are coming out. See below.

The other white duck can't really help much so it stood helplessly on the side. I kept screaming at the males, trying to shoo them away. The BF actually LIGHTLY pushed one of the males away and it didn't bulge!!! DAMN!

The BF was videotaping the whole thing but in the end we realize that he didn't actually record it \"(-_-)/

After 2 minutes, he went to move the car backwards and the girl got out and the males kept chasing her to the grass and one of them almost successfully got on top of her and started his humping. Luckily in the end she somehow got away and I guess the males got tired and gave up.

DAMN. the males are violent. I guess ducks are one fo the species who really dun respect the females of their kind. Makes me don't like them as much. Especially when the females were so pretty in their white feathers..... hahahha

Anyways, the next stop was my favorite cupcake place in Vegas— The Cupcakery. I'm so surprised he remembered. I had to wait till we got to another place because since I have braces now, I need to take them out and wash it before I can eat, and then put them back on.

I'm happy I'm doing this but I hope I can endure the pain and inconvenience for now and then I'll be looking great in my new smile :)

Goodnight!

Happy Easter!

From etsy seller, link here.

the BF's family is here, so our place will temporarily be a party house.

Went to my first bridal shower in USA, and it was short and sweet, had to skip the night out part coz of the BF's bbq party.

What's new but working like a Dog.

Sparky bit a little girl. It made me pretty upset.

I have a glass of Moscato next to me now and it's pretty good.

I have so many shopping obssessions, it's not funny.

my blog is not dead!

Blame work, blame the BF, blame life.

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Dreaming of Paris, but first...

I AM GOING TO SF FOR MY BIRTHDAY! YAY!

So exciting! Dunnoe why the BF suddenly said: Erm, why don;t we go to SF for your bday?

Then I sprung out of my seat, and immediately searched for flights.

It started out as taking the day off for my bday which is falling on wednesday this year. I took only wednesday off as I don;t believe anyone should work on their bday. But the BF took wed through fri, and I was like: it's not even your bday. Then he decided not to waste it by sitting around at home, so YAY!

I have been trying to get him to go visit with me for a while. I've been away for 3+ years, but I'm pretty confident that I can remember the buses to take to the Ferry building so I can have a Miette cupcake (or three) on my special day. I can't wait to see my friends, breathe in the cool crisp bay air and just dance in this fabulous city I used to call Home.

I'll def. write about my trip after I'm back.

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Next up, is planning for Paris. I always wanted to go there. I would move there in a heartbeat once I can figure how to speak French and manage a stylish lifestyle there (Any French royalty interested in a cute Asian gf?).

this trip should happen later this fall. Will keep you posted. In the meantime, I have been living a very modest lifestyle. Even when I went shopping last Saturday, by myself, with no BF nagging at me, I DIDN'T BUY ANYTHING!!!!!!!

sighz, I have grown up.

last post for the year.

what can I say? 2010 was highly anticipated for me coz 2009 sucked like nobody's business.

at least 11 is my favorite number AND my mom forwarded me and email saying 2011—the rabbit year is great for Monkeys like me so I'm definitely looking forward to the new year.

Did I just give away my age? *shrugs*

The house smells like freshly baked brownies and sausages and bread, coz' yes we made some brownies and pigs-in-a-blanket. Hooray!

I got extremely sick for the past week, so ironically, despite the extra days off, I did nothing much but lounge around at home. Why did I get sick? I don't know, might be because I also spend the last 3 weeks working like a dog.

But the good news is, I finally got the 'approval' from the big guy at work! So i'm glad. Just hope that I'm not a one-hit-wonder and can keep up the great work in 2011.

I know I can. I must.

So today is spend eating yummy home-made Filipino-style Spaghetti, one filet mignon leftover from X'mas and yummy potato au gratin. And surrounded by love.

It's 11.41pm. *cough cough* Almost there!

I really wanna sparkle this new year. I will. And I hope the very best for all my family and friends out there.

Cheers!

I promise

this blog is not dead. the owner is just lazy.

Plus I had a refill at the dentist today. Refill—took out old cavity fillings and replaced with new shiny cosmetic white plastic based ones. So that when I yell at someone, they don't focus on the visibly awful black mercury fillings in my last few Molar teeth I had since I was a child.

Speaking of which, I totally cannot erased the memory of our Primary school dentist. That dingy so-called dental office located in the other school next door always smells musky. Filled with totally out dated equipment (I knew even when I was a kid as the same loathsome chair was never upgraded for like 6 years) and dizzy ceiling lights. I think she is not even a dentist. She seemed more like a dental hygienist who hates kids. I know she hates kids because she doesn't care how we feel. She doesn't need our parents' consent to do any dental work on us, which I think is total BULLSHIT.

She extracts our tooth whenever she think is appropriate and she gives us POISONOUS MERCURY cavity fillings without thinking twice. How do I know? I went to a dentist in USA a few years ago who told me:

"You should change those fillings."

"Why?" I asked.

"They look like they are starting to chip off on the edges. They are probably old right? And they are mercury-based."

"That sounds poisonous!"

"They were only poisonous when they first put it in... ..."

Inside voice: WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

He continued:"Also, I can't even just throw them away. By law, I have to dispose of them in a safe procedure because of the mercury."

Inside voice: 1000000000 x WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

I know now that I am a victim of a psycho dentist hygienist, who probably wasn't smart enough to be a real dentist, hated kids and chose to freaking drill into our teeth like there is no tomorrow. My cavities were probably not even alarming at all. But I was just unfortunate. I was poisoned as a child and maybe, I feel like going back to the country, sue the Ministry for negligence. The mercury had probably entered my blood stream and cause some deficiency that I will find out later in my life. Which will probably be too late.

The sad truth is, I wasn't the only victim.

I don't know if you know much about sugar

But most of the drinks in USA are sweetened with high fructose corn syrup, instead of sugar. I made a double-take when I saw this in stores and wanted it immediately. For the nolstagia and the fact that it's using real sugar. It tasted a bit different. I like it, just not used to it. Tried the Mountain Dew version too and it tastes interesting...

It's funny how we are all subjected to the 'right' choice and when we have the 'real' choice, it's like a special occasion and for this instance, it tasted interesting.

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There's so much going on right now. So tired and busy and weak. will chat with ya another day.

we're so lucky to have sparky...

He is one of the sweetest dog I ever know. I don't know how we end up so lucky with our first adoption, but we did.

He makes me forget that I had a crappy day at work.

He makes me feel that I'm important.

He doesn't judge me.

And all he wants is cuddle-time, on the couch, in front of the TV every night.

The last day

Yesterday was the church mass. The last time I was at that church was Christmas Day, where we came to attend the mass and mainly, listen to L's singing. She's the leader of the choir.

But yesterday, she sang the hardest song of her life. It is a Filipino song about a mother, having to send her child off from this world. It brought everyone to tears. It was most beautiful—her angelic voice, her selfless love.

This morning was the burial. We stood under the gleaming sun as the white little casket shined brightly. L & J, especially L, broke down uncontrollably as they lowered her little angel six feet under. We took turns to toss in blooming white roses as we said goodbye.

Around her resting spot lies dozens of other little angels. We hope that they are happily playing up there, free from the pain and sorrows of this world, in the embrace of their loving gods.

Why Intelligent People Fail

(stolen from Cowboy, original article here)

Before you come to the conclusion yourself—At least I am intelligent enough to know that I am intelligent, yet a failure. Le Sigh~

Content from Sternberg, R. (1994). In search of the human mind. New York: Harcourt Brace.

1. Lack of motivation. A talent is irrelevant if a person is not motivated to use it. Motivation may be external (for example, social approval) or internal (satisfaction from a job well-done, for instance). External sources tend to be transient, while internal sources tend to produce more consistent performance.

2. Lack of impulse control. Habitual impulsiveness gets in the way of optimal performance. Some people do not bring their full intellectual resources to bear on a problem but go with the first solution that pops into their heads.

3. Lack of perserverance and perseveration. Some people give up too easily, while others are unable to stop even when the quest will clearly be fruitless.

4. Using the wrong abilities. People may not be using the right abilities for the tasks in which they are engaged.

5. Inability to translate thought into action. Some people seem buried in thought. They have good ideas but rarely seem able to do anything about them.

6. Lack of product orientation. Some people seem more concerned about the process than the result of activity.

7. Inability to complete tasks. For some people nothing ever draws to a close. Perhaps it’s fear of what they would do next or fear of becoming hopelessly enmeshed in detail.

8. Failure to initiate. Still others are unwilling or unable to initiate a project. It may be indecision or fear of commitment.

9. Fear of failure. People may not reach peak performance because they avoid the really important challenges in life.

10. Procrastination. Some people are unable to act without pressure. They may also look for little things to do in order to put off the big ones.

11. Misattribution of blame. Some people always blame themselves for even the slightest mishap. Some always blame others.

12. Excessive self-pity. Some people spend more time feeling sorry for themselves than expending the effort necessary to overcome the problem.

13. Excessive dependency. Some people expect others to do for them what they ought to be doing themselves.

14. Wallowing in personal difficulties. Some people let their personal difficulties interfere grossly with their work. During the course of life, one can expect some real joys and some real sorrows. Maintaining a proper perspective is often difficult.

15. Distractibility and lack of concentration. Even some very intelligent people have very short attention spans.

16. Spreading oneself too think or too thick. Undertaking too many activities may result in none being completed on time. Undertaking too few can also result in missed opportunities and reduced levels of accomplishment.

17. Inability to delay gratification. Some people reward themselves and are rewarded by others for finishing small tasks, while avoiding bigger tasks that would earn them larger rewards.

18. Inability to see the forest for the trees. Some people become obsessed with details and are either unwilling or unable to see or deal with the larger picture in the projects they undertake.

19. Lack of balance between critical, analytical thinking and creative, synthetic thinking. It is important for people to learn what kind of thinking is expected of them in each situation.

20. Too little or too much self-confidence. Lack of self-confidence can gnaw away at a person’s ability to get things done and become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Conversely, individuals with too much self-confidence may not know when to admit they are wrong or in need of self-improvement.

OMG you ladies have to read this!

Very innocently, I just wanted to shop online for lunch bags as mine is almost broken. Being a designer, I cannot just go to Walmart and get one. I've to shop for the coolest shite ever to be designed for a lunch bag.

I made it go a eco-friendly online store and after finally making some decisions, I wanted to browse around to see what other cool stuff they do sell.

Then I chance upon the Divacup™ when I was looking at Lunapads™ - Mini Pantyliner which totally intrigued me. I thought about adding one to the basket. OK wait. I didn't think it was disgusting since it's for non-period usage. You know, the damage will be so minimal. But as I read the reviews, everyone stated that it will be great to use with Divacups. What is that? Cup? I thought of breasts immediately but it doesn't make sense.

Before you leave my blog to go see what a Divacup™ is, please do remember to come back after and leave me your comment. Don't forget to browse the pictures section to see how you can use it.

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I am baaaaaacccccccck!

I meant to sin city.

Le sigh.

see ya!

omg. had a massive panic attack when i thought i lost my visa papers. then bf ask what could happen? i realize it not that bad. i could just not return or just enter as a tourist and see what happens? haha but i found it UNDER the drawer after searching frantically like a maniac. UNDER. it somehow slipped under. omg. life is mocking me right before i go on a great vacation.

ok it's time to go sleep or i'll be super cranky. it's gonna be a long journey but totally worth it.

bye biatches.

Early B-day 2010

It was a lazy saturday. The BF wanted to surprise me with an early birthday celebration with friends here but I guess he can't learn to keep anything from me. muahahaha. So we started the celebration by me having a little hissy fit that he has NOT gotten any cake for me. What is a celebration without any cake? And luckily for him, we drove by the area where my fav. local cupcake bakery is and his fast wits brought him to the rescue.

A dozen angelic cupcakes from the best local The Cupcakery! The chocolate on the right is named Grasshopper! Coz' it has choc mint bits on the top.

Ok, will continue on the story of how we abuse the cupcakes later. First we met with friends at KAYA, a Korean-Jap all-you-can-eat restaurant. They have a great list of appetizers that we covet more than the sushi rolls. We ordered more alcohol than food. well, ok maybe equally so. By the time the main food was served, we were all buzzing.

These actions are due to alcohol.

This is the only food shot I took. Forgot.

Group shot towards the end.

So we were going to play pool but our preggers friend didn't like the location. so we jsut spontanesouly hopped into the 24 HR massage parlor next door! e dunnoe if it is "special" or not, we just went in! We figured we can check it out and evaluate the place ourselves.

It turned out to be ran by people from Mainland China, of course right? It was their 3rd day of opening and it cost about 20 bucks for a 30 mins foot massage. And we fell for it. Sorry no pictures coz it was kinda dark and I never thought about taking pics too.

After a satisfying treat (no happy endings though), we retreated back to our house to have the cupcakes and play some Mahjong!

The star candle is really cool because......

It sparkles!

Granted that I didn't get to celebrate my bday last year, I have kinda forgot how it is like to be the bday girl. Crazy huh. But life has been even crazier that I kinda forget some little things in life. I can't wait to be back with the family and be together with them for this.