dimanche, juillet 31, 2011

I am a bad person.

I've neglecting my blog again...Forgive me as I was trying to woo my Life back to me. It's been great so far.

Yesterday (sat) I had a very fulfilling day. I went kayaking in the AM, bbq dinner party and then KTV till the wee hours. I was exhausted but in a very good way. I'm making it a point to accept any social invitation, and also plan things to do with friends who are helping me to move on quicker than I thought.

I admit that there are moments where I slipped. Like when I was floating on my life vest alone, just chilling in Lake Mead when we took a break on an island from kayaking, I was imaging things. I was actually talking to him in my head as he appear right before, but at least I was telling him to go away :) And it would never be true because he is actually scared of the ocean and can't swim (what a dumbass. Seriously why did I date him?) LOL


Have you watch Objectified?

Objectified Trailer from victor barcellos on Vimeo.



We watched it at work during a "Lunch & Learn" session. It was nice to have such activities at work.

samedi, juillet 09, 2011

The Art of The Moment

Finally! I have time to read/re-read my books. I kinda forgot about the joy of reading for a while. Bad. Another thing I need to be aware of, if I ever forget myself in a relationship...

So I am reading The The Art of The Moment: Simple Ways to Get the Most from Life by Veronique Vienne and my beloved Pride & Prejudice by Jane Austen.

I want to share a great excerpt from the former:

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The Gift of Forgetfulness

"Happiness? That's nothing more than health and a poor memory," said Nobel prize winner Albert Schweitzer. A doctor, musician, humanitarian, and philosopher, he reinvented himself time and time again.

Enjoy your memory lapses—they make each moment a second-to-none occurrence.

• Be here now: Live as if you won't remember tomorrow what you did today.

• Be carefree: Forget what you think you know and let the world take you by surprise.

• Be blessed: Forget what you want but enjoy what you get.

• Be popular: Forget to point out that you were right in the first place.

• Be memorable: Take for granted that most folks will forget what you said but will always remember how you made them feel.

• Be generous: Between friends, forget what must be forgotten.

• Be truthful: Don't lie and you won't have to remember a thing.

• Be forgiving: Forget the age of anyone over 35.

• Be modest: Forget to mention your accomplishments.

• Be ready: This is it. The rest is but a memory.

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Wise words. Goodnight.

vendredi, juillet 01, 2011

So I'm all settled in...

My new Apartment! Everyone knows I'm always excited and up for re-decorating a whole new living space. But this time, I do it with a lot of sadness and haste. Nevertheless, I think I lucked out—getting a move-in ready apartment which is 10 minutes' drive from work and also very pet-friendly.

It's a 2 bedroom, so yes I have a roomie. He's a cute little boy who's a lot younger and my junior at work. So he has already encountered the very-bitchy-at-work me so I don't think it's any different from a very-bitchy-at-home me! He's very sweet, volunteered to do the 'man' stuff of the house, lets me have the master bedroom and is putting up with my hoarding issues. Most importantly, he has met Sparky before and loves him too!

We stay in a corner unit, on the second floor, there's a little balcony for the nice evenings we are having now. We intend to lay some wood flooring and put some nice lights. There is two full bathrooms so we don't have to fight over it. Our bedrooms are at the opposite end of the apartments so we won't have to worry about disturbing each other. I would be happy for him if he brings someone home, but I don;t need to hear about it! Vice versa!!!

I'm definitely not done unpacking yet, though the closet is already pretty organized.

I took as much as I can from the house. First, I didn't want to have to buy anything or spend anymore money. Secondly, I did contribute monetarily to most of the furniture and appliances although I was staying rent/bills-free over there. Lastly, I JUST didn't want him to have it. I took what I need, what was originally from my previous apartment, and what I thought I fairly deserved (on a very logically and rational way).

If you guys really want to know, read on.

So by the third day, I found an apartment because that was the main thing I had to do to keep sane. I cannot bear living in that house anymore. Although he said I don't have to move out (WTF right?) I started packing once I know I'm about to sign on to the apartment. It was painful.

The weekend finally arrived after a few more agonizing days. I asked a few friends to help me move. I felt weak, helpless. I really needed someone to save me and my friends did. They came, packed my shit in boxes, loaded up their cars and unloaded numerous more into the new apt, in crazy heat, never complained, and only gave me their very best. That's why there is a saying: boy/girlfriends come and go, but true friends always stays.

Sparky came with me. He has no means of taking care of anyone, even himself, so there is no way in HELL I would leave Sparky with him. I'm the one who takes Sparky to the vet, the one who takes him to the park and the one who buys his food. He is my son, haha.

Since then I've only return there once to collect some stuff I've forgotten. I probably need to make another trip, but there is no rush. I found the gate opener in my car, but who cares, it's his loss. I'll return it at my own sweet time.

With no risk, there will be no gain. This past relationship made me wiser. It's the first that I've been so open and so serious about. I'm learning from what I did—right, wrong or anything in between. Hope that through this, I am a better person for when the Love of my life appears in front of me, I know exactly what to do.

samedi, juin 18, 2011

Nursing a broken heart

Or rather I can say I'm becoming stronger with each experience.

I've surprised myself with the entire trip—as in how this relationship begun and came to an end, how I dived it, how I let it run freely and how I am now, 2 weeks later. And when I say I'm fine, I can say it's 90% true.

I attribute this strength to the overwhelming love I've received from my lovely supportive family and generous friends. You are the ones I can count on no matter what happens, and you are the ones I can truly believe who will love me till the end of time.

I want to keep moving forward. I want to let go. I want to be in love again.

It can only get better right?

p.s. dunch worry, Sparky is mine to keep!

lundi, mai 30, 2011

Sparky is a Star!!!

My photographer friend came by today to take some awesome Sparky shots for her portfolio.
DANG!

She made Sparky look even much better (which I thought was not possible).

Go to my FB! She tagged me in most of the pictures.

Just some vanity shots

Dropped by the Target Corporation sponsored free day at the local Springs Preserve.

Bleh. Wasn't very interesting at all, especially compared to the Lied Children Science Museum we visited last weekend. Glad we didn't have to pay the $10.95/person entrance fee.

To make matters worse, I wanted to try out the Wolfgang Puck Cafe at the location and the service was really slooooooow. I know, it's a busy day, they should put more staff on duty then. I blame the management, not the mistreated and I-don't-wanna-be-here-look-on-my-face kitchen to floor staff who had to deal with the overwhelming number of customers. Time we spent waiting in line to order plus waiting for the food to be served: 1 hr 45 mins. Time we spent actually eating: 20 mins.

They actually have a good view of the Strip on one of the trails, but that's not hard due to the low level architecture throughout the city.
No disrespect to the Native Americans but doesn't Little A look like her? Blame it on the haircut.
That's all folks. Yes, that place is kinda boring. I didn't bother to take any shots of the exhibit.

dimanche, mai 29, 2011

My Heath Ceramics

Thanks to Clara, Janice & Karen!!!

I got these from my recent SF trip with the yummy gift card that they sent me for X'mas. This makes shopping so much more satisfying!

The 2010 Fall/Winter seasonal limited edition tall vase—factory price was about 30% less then retail and it was the only one. I zoomed right in and grabbed it before anyone else could. The baby breath was from the bf's gift of a rose bouquet from Valentine's day and the single dried up pink carnation was from Ashley during Mother's day :D
The yellow glazed bud vase is the new one (the brown and white were from a previous LA trip). From the current 2011 Spring/Summer seasonal limited edition.

Looks like I have a little "Clara" shrine as she also gifted me the adorable birdie cupcake stand on the left that is now used to hold our car keys since this is right by the entry way from our garage.

mercredi, mai 25, 2011

My invisalign video!!!



I will say it again — 1 step closer to PERFECTION!!!

Another cute video

lundi, mai 16, 2011

some updates

This is what Sparky does, during most of the day, when I'm supposed to be working.
(I took this precious pic when I was sick at home last week. Sick again! I am so useless!)
(Pardon my messy backyard. The fake grass is breaking down :( Need to put new one in)

And wh doesn't wanna see a close up pic of my son? So cute.

So the big news/ conversation starter nowadays for me is my Invisaligners! I just started two Fridays ago. I'm on my second set now. and GOSH! The first time did hurt a lot. Plus my dentist had to whip out his tiny set of saws to shave off some of my teeth coz my main problem is overcrowding. So now I have some gaps between my teeth, hopefully they will move quicker.

I'm bound to lose weight coz' wearing the aligners disallow me to snack throughout the day at my desk while I'm working. You can't eat with them on and it's a hassle to have to brush and floss everytime after i eat. Booooooo. Price of vanity.
Let's see if I'll be more perfect in 12 months!

The little extra things on some of my teeth are attachés, they help the aligners 'hold on' so they don;t move around too much.

samedi, mai 07, 2011

The cutest Elly bag from Kate Spade




If I have a couple hundreds of thousands bucks lying around, then I'll consider getting this utterly charming yet kinda impractical basket-weaved tote from Kate Spade. I love elephants!

Linky here.

dimanche, mai 01, 2011

He knows how to call me 姑姑!

Date Night

Supposed to go watch the UFC fight but ended up as a Date Night since we got some time to be just alone. And when I say alone it means only the two of us.

So he surprised me with a trip back to this nice neighborhood with its own man made lake. He brought me there like 2+ years ago on a date—It was later in the night, and we just had dinner and I wanted to go home already but he refused to *release* me. So he drove me to this lakeside to hang out for a while and it was freezing! I remember being very nervous, because I thought he was going to "make his move" but he didn't. Phew~

It was only a few dates later then we became officially a couple. So when we stood at the same spot just now, I told him he owes me a kiss, as I didn't receive one 2 years ago. It's all good now.

Awkward smile due to my Invisaligners

I look FUGLY in this picture (pls do not click to enlarge it) but I think is awesomely funny so I have to share it. The ducks came out of nowhere on the right and started running so I pretended it was chasing me :)


But then we figured they weren't interested in us. (this is how we see it) Turns out that the 2 white ducks are females and the 2 dark brown/green ones are males and the latter is aggressively chasing one of the white ducks. Because I joined it in party, the victim went to hide under the front of our car! But the 2 males refused to give up (horny bastards) and keep pecking at the poor girl on her neck. So much that I could see it turning red and the feathers are coming out. See below.
The other white duck can't really help much so it stood helplessly on the side. I kept screaming at the males, trying to shoo them away. The BF actually LIGHTLY pushed one of the males away and it didn't bulge!!! DAMN!

The BF was videotaping the whole thing but in the end we realize that he didn't actually record it \"(-_-)/

After 2 minutes, he went to move the car backwards and the girl got out and the males kept chasing her to the grass and one of them almost successfully got on top of her and started his humping. Luckily in the end she somehow got away and I guess the males got tired and gave up.

DAMN. the males are violent. I guess ducks are one fo the species who really dun respect the females of their kind. Makes me don't like them as much. Especially when the females were so pretty in their white feathers..... hahahha

Anyways, the next stop was my favorite cupcake place in Vegas— The Cupcakery. I'm so surprised he remembered. I had to wait till we got to another place because since I have braces now, I need to take them out and wash it before I can eat, and then put them back on.

I'm happy I'm doing this but I hope I can endure the pain and inconvenience for now and then I'll be looking great in my new smile :)

Goodnight!

mercredi, avril 27, 2011

mardi, avril 26, 2011

sparky


The BF saw Sparky lying down on the couch, without a care in the world, with his Ducky, and said: "It's like you're on vacation everyday!"

p.s. Sparky is much better now, he's back to normal! It's just that we have to watch is back (literally) and no let him jump too much. No medicine or vitamins would help. I've know a lot of people who have the bulging disc in their back too. It sucks!

samedi, avril 23, 2011

current obssession 20

MAC Wonder Woman Collection!!!

I'm like 6 months late in getting roped into this news. Not news anymore technically. Most fo the items are sold out and boohoo! I have to pay more to get it on Evil-bay.

Getting that red lipstick (Russian Red) coz I tried my friend's and I felt in love with how my face beamed immediately.




Happy Easter!

From etsy seller, link here.

the BF's family is here, so our place will temporarily be a party house.

Went to my first bridal shower in USA, and it was short and sweet, had to skip the night out part coz of the BF's bbq party.

What's new but working like a Dog.

Sparky bit a little girl. It made me pretty upset.

I have a glass of Moscato next to me now and it's pretty good.

I have so many shopping obssessions, it's not funny.


dimanche, avril 10, 2011

I miss SF already

It was a perfect vacation!!! The skies opened up and the birds were singing. The GODs made me feel love with the perfect weather and beautiful nature that surrounds. My dear friends all made an effort to spend some time together, eating good food and catching up the lost times. Sighz. I miss that beautiful city, always something to do, always something nice happening.

It's not his first time in SF, but it's definitely a different trip with locals showing him around. Took him to many various neighborhoods to experience the wide variety of lifestyles that makes SF so unique. Also trying to psycho him to move to the Bay Area if possible!!! I hope I can call SF my home again.

Very nice room at Hotel Nikko, right in downtown. 19th Floor!

Fried Louisiana-style chicken for the very first meal :)
Got myself a shiny new Michael Kors Silver/Rosegold oversized watch with my birthday money from my awesome friends—yun, yenyee & shirley!
in front of the Ferry Building
Getting my birthday cupcake
BF hanging out with his friend from the city
Having birthday dinner @ The Stinking Rose with great company
They sang:
Happy Birthday to you... Happy Birthday to you... Happy Birthday to Little Stinker! Happy Birthday to you...
My cupcake eyes!

Enjoying a gelato in the Mission

Taco Salad
yummy little donuts @ the Pier 39



It was waiting for me to drop some food...



Beautiful flowers @ Golden Gate Bridge

Shinta
Dinner @ Burma Superstar. Yums!
Twin Peaks
Leo in his perfect view sleeping spot @ home

@ Heath Ceramics Sausalito! Bought some vases with my giftcard from the girls during X'mas
Eating awesome Seafood @ Fish, Sausalito

Palace of Fine Arts
Leo's first time @ a bar
With kurumi-chan

Drunk already

Great Shanghai Food
The BF vs Geisha and she won

It was a perfect vacation!!!